Self Confidence

Realised I have turned into a negative person, haven't had any constructive self-talk to myself for years...

I miss the old me full of confidence, happy and motivated to do everything, try every new thing, why has Architecture made me into this? I used to scored A's with ease, I have excellent logical thinking, I have my own self discipline, but in this practise, I lost it, all.

Remembered I once talked to Sze Hua before entering architecture, don't look too highly of me, I will try, however am prepared for everything. Yes, now that we can conclude on the conversation, I am such a failure in this...

I try to love my course, my life, my living, but I cannot stop it from pushing me down, I hate it.

I am feeling harder and harder to breathe, go blank everytime I looking at the cad drawings, have no confidence, have no courage to talk to people, I have been looked down, I hate it.

May it just be something period, over, forward the time fast to pass through remaining 1 year 2 months, my only wish now...

Suddenly I miss riding around during wee hours on carless roads of KL city.